I moved to Montpelier, Ohio, a small town in the northwest corner of the state, late in the summer of 1977. My mental model for such a place was fictional, Sherwood Anderson’s Winesburg, Ohio. I was born and raised in a Cleveland suburb and a small town surrounded by corn and soybean fields seemed terribly exotic. Anderson prefaced his stories with “The Book of the Grotesque,” a brief scene-setter which today I find condescending to smalltown people. He writes:
It’s all a little silly
and saturated in semi-digested Freudian nonsense, but half a century ago I took
Anderson’s grotesquerie seriously. The main financial institution in Montpelier
was downtown, two blocks from where we lived, and was called the Farmer’s and
Merchant’s Bank. Its president, a very old man, was our landlord, and I
resented him for no good reason. The town’s weekly newspaper, where I would
soon go to work, was housed in a former gas station. The grocery/liquor store
on Main Street was owned and run by a crippled man with a withered arm. Across
the street was a pet store owned by a man who always wore olive-green overalls,
with a parrot perched on his shoulder. Down his back ran a dense
white smear of bird shit.
I soon ran into a peculiar-looking
young man, always dressed in cowboy regalia. I never saw him do anything except
walk around downtown. His face was almost featureless and resembled a slice of
ham. Most of one side of it had been erased. He had one eye. I soon learned
that he had bungled a suicide attempt with a shotgun. Those not laughing at him
adopted a protective attitude. He died a year or two later and I’ve often
wondered what his life was like. What made him desperate enough to try to kill
himself? Did he ever think about trying again?
In his biography of Edwin
Arlington Robinson, Scott Donaldson devotes several interesting pages to the poet’s
attitude toward death, which remained consistent through the years. When his
mother died in 1896, Robinson didn’t grieve. He reasoned that her suffering was
over. She was released. When the daughter of neighbors in Gardiner, Maine was
drowned while the family was on vacation, Robinson wrote to a friend: “I am
never sorry for the dead, but I can be damnably sorry for the living.”
An uncle of the same
neighbors, Donaldson tells us, “suffered a disfiguring gunshot wound while
rabbit hunting,” and lingered for four days. Robinson wrote to a friend that he
hoped the doctors “inadvertently . . . hastened things a little.” Robinson was
stoical about death, a stance that can be mistaken for insensitivity. His
brother Herman became an alcoholic, was estranged from his wife and children
and died of tuberculosis in 1909. His eldest brother, Dean, was a pharmacist
who became a morphine addict and had taken his life in 1899 with an overdose.
Death was like a neighbor in those days, intimately familiar, not something
that routinely happened in a hospital.
Robinson wrote “For a Dead Lady” for his mother, Mary Palmer Robinson, after her death in 1896, shortly
before he published his first book, The Torrent and the Night Before.
Here is the final stanza:
“The beauty, shattered by
the laws
That have creation in
their keeping,
No longer trembles at
applause,
Or over children that are
sleeping;
And we who delve in beauty’s
lore
Know all that we have
known before
Of what inexorable cause
Makes Time so vicious in
his reaping.”