A reader doesn’t understand how tastes in books and writers might evolve across a lifetime, how indifference might replace enthusiasm and love, indifference. He mentions Hart Crane, a poet I’m unlikely ever to reread. I swooned over The Bridge in high school, spurred on by our shared ties to Cleveland and alcohol. A friend and I mapped a route among the downtown bars that Crane may have visited, some of which still existed half a century ago, then undertook a pub crawl, toasting him along the way. Crane is not a bad poet. That’s not the point. His Library of America collection is on the shelf beside me. He just no longer writes for me.
My poetic
main man around that time was John Berryman. It’s not a stretch to say I was
obsessed with him and his work, far more than Crane. I read and collected every
biographical and critical scrap about him I could find, including the July 21,
1967 issue of Life magazine, which
features a story about him and photos of the poet in Ireland. After his suicide
in 1972 I bought his posthumous novel, Recovery
(1973); his essay collection, The Freedom
of the Poet (1976); Henry's Fate
& Other Poems, 1967-1972 (1977) and first editions of the poetry. Of
the latter I’ve kept only The Dream Songs
(1969), which brings together 77 Dream
Songs (1964) and His Toy, His Dream
His Rest (1968).
What
changed? Alcohol had something to do with it, the romantic appeal of the
tormented poète manqué. I genuinely
admired Berryman’s gifts while overlooking how he abused them. Today I
understand that much of the incoherence in the Dreams Songs is drunken self-indulgence. Like every alcoholic,
Berryman was a walking or stumbling disaster, hurting and disappointing everyone
he encountered, including himself. I stopped drinking in 1979 and slowly over
those early years of sobriety, Berryman’s appeal faded.
The opposite
of the Crane/Berryman syndrome is Louis MacNeice. I was indifferent to the
Irishman when young, though devoted to his friend W.H. Auden and his countryman Yeats. What a mistake I made. Clive James, writing of
MacNeice’s Autumn Journal (1939),
calls it “an intoxicating cocktail of classical metres, conversational rhythms and reportorial detail.” In his
introduction to it, MacNeice writes: “Poetry in my opinion must be honest
before anything else and I refuse to be ‘objective’ or clear-cut at the cost of
honesty.” MacNeice writes about us, common working people, in ways Berryman
never approached:
“Now the
till and the typewriter call the fingers,
The workman gathers his tools
For the
eight-hour day but after that the solace
Of films or football pools
Or of the
gossip or cuddle, the moments of self-glory
Or self-indulgence, blinkers on
the eyes of doubt,
The blue
smoke rising and the brown lace sinking
In the empty glass of stout.”
Whereas
Berryman in the elegy for MacNeice, “Dream Song” 267, can’t forget himself long
enough to rather feebly mourn the poet who died in 1963. “Can Louis die? Why, then it’s time
to join him /again, for another round, the lovely man.”