“We were not, either by temperament or experience, meant to
live in paradise.”
Two brothers down the block, five and seven, got bicycles for
Christmas, and by 8 a.m. were shooting around the cul-de-sac, shrieking in
idiotic joy. They were wearing the Star
Wars backpacks also found under the tree, and wore factory-white sneakers.
I felt the impossible impulse to somehow record their pure animal pleasure so
they could be reminded decades from now, when they are tired and tempted to
believe in nothing, that once upon a time it was possible to taste paradise, or
its earthly facsimile.
L.E. Sissman had a forgivable surplus of reasons to indulge in
self-pity and bitterness with the universe. He was diagnosed with Hodgkin’s
lymphoma in 1965 at the age of thirty-seven. He published his first collection
of poems, Dying: An Introduction,
three years later, and transformed himself into our poet laureate of death,
dying and cancer, but his sensibility was bigger and more generous than such a
description implies. His poems are intimate and unsparing but never
confessional in the banal sense. The poems are never impressed by the poet’s
courage. They are witty and coolly observant. Sissman is a deeply civilized man
and poet, never stuffy or sententious.
The sentence at the top comes from the punningly titled “M’aidez,”
an essay collected in Innocent Bystander:
The Scene from the 70’s, published in 1975, one year before his death at
age forty-eight. The essay, devoted to the month of May, embodies a quality I find
increasingly attractive in writers and people in general: a gift for carrying
on and expressing gratitude despite hardship. Some kids possess it, fewer
adults. Sissman’s paragraph continues:
“A little Eden goes a year-long way. May is welcome to come,
more welcome to be gone. Unlike children, who can make Edens out of the
unlikely raw materials of any season, we are rather resentful of a month that
seduces us away from our pursuits and troubles and back into our childish
selves.”
Sissman can admire and enjoy children and childlike qualities in
others without endorsing the childish strain in the ideologies of the Sixties. I
remember a cover of Ramparts magazine
from the end of that decade that proclaimed “Utopia Now!” Cambodia soon
experienced its own brand of Utopia, as North Korea still does. Sissman writes in
the final lines of “A War Requiem” from his second book, Scattered Returns (1969):
“Snow begins
To lance
against the window, and I see,
By luck, a
leisurely and murderous
Shadow
detach itself with a marine
Grace from
an apple tree. A snowy owl,
Cinereous,
nearly invisible,
Planes
down its glide path to surprise a vole.”
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