Deciding which of Chekhov’s more than five-hundred stories is the finest is a happily futile task. He is a reader’s pipe dream: a great writer who was prolific (though he died at age forty-four). My sentimental favorite is “My Life” (1896), a novella written during his Melikhovo period. Misail Poloznev is a young nobleman who resolves to become a member of the proletariat, though not out of revolutionary zeal. He rejects the life he inherited but without self-dramatization. His motives are private, not histrionic, and everyone, even his father, mocks him and fails to understand Misail’s choice. By the end he has lost the woman he loves and made his sister’s life difficult, but we admire him. His life has been lonely and difficult but he has achieved integrity and a certain moral eminence. I remembered Chekhov’s story when reading Len Krisak’s similarly titled “A Life,” published in Pulse Beat Poetry Journal:
“The streets, albeit not
with gold, were paved,
The path both broad and
even; wide the way
And easy, with no uniform
to don.
By almost nothing was he
put upon.
Old age had been foreseen,
and so he saved,
The modicum matched with
its rainy day.
The sheets were clean, as
were the neat clothes worn
From bawling babe, to
teen, to man, and on.
Few were the oaths
required to be sworn,
And almost nothing had
been sacrificed,
Or found worthwhile, or
worth the dying for.
As to the depredations
brought by war,
None had been undergone.
All things sufficed,
Since almost nothing
crucial had been needed.
Yes, easy, broad, and
even, he conceded,
Though through it all,
what all of it had meant
He couldn’t say. No, not
in any event.”
In seventeen lines, Krisak
encapsulates a life, as Chekhov does in “My Life” (and many other stories).
That life is conventional, unremarkable, perhaps blameless. But the character
described suspects he has missed something: “almost nothing had been
sacrificed.” There’s no mention of youthful dreams, whether accomplished or
lost. By the end he has not understood what it was all about. An unhappier
character than Misail, his life was not hurtful or destructive but
disappointing. We find similar narratives in Tolstoy, Edwin Arlington Robinson and
Richard Yates. Chekhov wrote in another story, “The Lady with the Little
Dog”:
“And he judged of others by himself, not believing in what he saw, and always believing that every man had his real, most interesting life under the cover of secrecy and under the cover of night. All personal life rested on secrecy, and possibly it was partly on that account that civilised man was so nervously anxious that personal privacy should be respected.”